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Bad Days

Things haven't been good lately and everyday i am just:(

Cant help being dumb and cant help fitting in.

Tbh at the start, i was super worried i couldnt fit in.
I mean i still dont fit in but i dont give a damn anymore.

I dont mind going alone , walking alone or wtv anymore. I just want to be alone.

And wtp is wrong with my grades.. also not like i never study and everyone acting like i didnt put in any effort which is why i never improve. speechless already.

So depressed ytd i deleted my insta acc.. mayb i shall delete twitter and snapchat too. i am sincere about studying ok... so can people please stop judging before they know anything..

Honestly wanted to give up on pw because i am depress but i cant 牵连到my group members...so :(

MAY TOUGH TIMES NOT LAST.TOUGH PEOPLE (ME) DO


And today gg to tuition was..
i was wearing this pair of creepers IMVO (in my valuable opinion) . Then when i was at the train station, i was like "oh fk" a small part came off. Then , little by little, the sole became coming off. So i limped my way to buy super glue($2.70). So for a moment i thought it worked and the sad me was happy again , thinking i fixed things. But then the next thing i knew, the whole thing came off... So i was like WTF? Then zhixuan helped me to buy the fabric glue (which is $6.90) WHICH DIDNT EVEN WORKED I AM SO PISSED. + it smells like a dead fish. In case u havent notice i spent so much on something that couldnt fix my shoe. I guess i was too despo at that moment to realised that i could buy a new pair of slippers with that amount. Dumb me i am sry.

Then everyone was staring at me in tuition and people were laughing :( i think it was funny too, but i obviouly wont laugh at myself?
Wonder how i got home????

Got a few rubber bands and wrapped it around the shoe hahahahaha

SO TIPS:
CHECK UR SHOES BEFORE U GO OUT
BRING ALOT OF MONEY TO ENSURE THAT U HAVE MONEY TO BUY A PAIR OF SHOE OR CAB HOME


Jk i anyhow say one.
On a side note i am damn tired:( creating a website for my pw group. i u might want to check it out hahaah: http://pwprototype5j.blogspot.sg/


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