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Too many things that I just have to let out. 

It's really sad when I say I don't care, but deep down inside I really really care. About many things . Looking fine doesn't mean I am feeling fine . It is sad how you walk past people you used to know, wanting to say hi but you know you can't . After all we are just strangers with memories. Things doesn't happen. People just drift apart/ people just started to not give a shit. If I am the only one trying , seriously what is the point ?? You want to give up on  it but also 不捨得放手. Then there are those who can't stop Bitching about you although your are supposedly friends? so ridiculous omg. It takes $0 to be decent so stop being so .....
Look at me angstying. People say that one shouldn't brood over losing friends because you can make new ones. But some times New friends can just never replace the old ones?? Yup friendship is not about time..but for me old is srsly gold. I think I trust those that I know longer more. It is really annoying when I tell someone something, but it spreads so much that it ends up coming back to me ..omy天.. really really hard to trust anybody liddis. I guess my old friends are the more trustworthy ones.. but there are also some new friends that are nice too lah haha. 

Anyways being an I( introvert) scale of 30/30, I get really really tired easily. Like one minute I might be laughing with you and the next minute I might be so tired that I don't talk and prolly have a resting bitch face. Really it's not ur problem. It's definitely mine. Because I always feel tired . And my face really look very 欠揍. I know I know...so please do not mind me ..and just let me zone / space out lehlehleh..
So I sometimes like at night suddenly very angsty but in the morning suddenly happy. I have problem I know :( but I am trying to change. Please bear with me :"( 

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