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It's funny how I can change my attitude/ perspective of somebody so quickly . Maybe just 2 days ago I am still super affected by the actions by someone  . I was still wondering how someone can have such a large impact on me . For the first time I felt like I am putting in so much effort for a friendship . I am doing so much and err maybe sacrificing other things . Ok maybe I am just over exaggerating . 

Idk I am just very surprise at how the way I feel can change so much in such a short span of time . Or maybe the perfect friend just doesn't exist. Nobody is perfect so what was I even expecting ? 🙅🏻 

I actually feel bad . Am I not treating other people sincerely enough ? But this is really getting too tiring . It is like people are taking me for granted . 

At some point of time I was the friend that prioritise some people over others 

Screw late night thoughts . Ps I am always extra sensitive and prickly and angsty at night . 

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