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12:16 am 28 November I can't tell the weather rn -\( " .")/ Dear diary or whatever Today is my last official day in uniform . The last time I will see this batch as a whole ( or at least the same combi) It might be the last day I will see some of my friends . We all say that yes , we will keep in touch . But the future is unpredictable. Who knows? We all have a separate pathways prepared for us . 7 billion people in the world . I am lucky to have met every single person I have met up till now . Those that came in as life lessons, and those that stayed and care . Honestly, staying in rv , all of us are being overprotected. We see the same batch of people for 6 years , with hardly new additions . We are not all friends , but at least we are comfortable human beings . We are comforted by each other presence . Every year, the new school term starts ". Probably every single one of us will feel a sense of relieved . No jittery feelings . We all feel safe in this pl...

when anything that could possibly go wrong, goes wrong. What happens when you feel like the entire world is against you. Little things that add up to build your anger. You have no one you can turn to. It is suffocating. I can feel it. And it feels really terrible.  Not wanting to let others see the weak side of you, yet you cant do anything about it either.  Societal's expectations of what you should do.  Exams results that does not add up to ur hardwork. And when you dont perform, people just say " oh, maybe you didnt try hard enough" people say the processes matter. But in the end, everybody look at the results. Results are not important? LOL. Truth is results matter . ALOT.  With A levels ending in one paper, i started on my job search.  i wish i had so much money that i can just sit at home and shake leg and watch drama. But meh i dont belong to the lucky bunch. How can i always turn to my parents for money. 他们又不是印钞票的....

i cried watching this :') very very touched idky

It is the midst of a levels.. and I seldom have late night thoughts now ... because I am so tired that I just mostly fall asleep immediately when I reach home . But it is a Friday ... and I am not studying ... but here lying down thinking about life .. it is currently 2 am So I am just gonna say what I am gonna say .. I Guess it feels really shitty when ur results are not to the standards of others . like people just ask u a qns, but they have 0 trust in what you are talking about .. and just directly turned to ask other people ... okaiii can't blame damn that my results are liddis. At 18, I have missed out so many opportunities in life :( it feels Super meaningless ... I have nothing in life