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things change, people change, feelings change too


Rather than being angry i am/was really disappointed.

Maybe its the A's that are nearing or something but i am extra prickly and sensitive these days (even more than usual )

Somehow my whole brain is in a whirlwind and i cant seem to stop myself from showing how i truly feel.

i hate how i am so vulnerable to people that i care for because i dont want to do anything to upset them.

i guess it is to the extent that i start bottling up myself. inside i am screaming in anger but somehow i am just controlling myself not get angry. Because i obviously know the consequences . Obviously it scares me because if it doesn't turn out like i want to, i will be even sadder.

I tend to overthink so much that when i was in class, i had the sudden urge to cry

Truth is, nobody knows the real me / how i truly feel. i have too much emotions for anybody to handle. adding on to my moodswings, even i cant handle myself.


i am so sick and tired of everyone and everything. One day i want to meet someone that can understand me without any complaints.

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