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Day 62

Day 62, till now a levels seems like an impossible hurdle to jump across

i am thankful to those that believe in me

i want to prove that i am somebody capable too

But it is so hard:(

It seems like i am here more and more often ! Simply because this space is still as space i can comfortably post whatever i want

Days like this i regretted all the time i wasted. Time spent on spazzing over people who wont even look at me , and caring about people who couldnt be bothered



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