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Dear Diary, 

I guess i am someone that overthinks alot. So every little thing that people say to me affects me more than they think it could. Maybe they dont mean it, maybe they do. But sometimes i wish that people could say stuffs without hurting my feelings especially when it is related to my insecurities. 


i dont even know what i want. And i hate it that i always treat people with extra care and super sensitive about what they feel, but people cant do the same for me. They just treat what i had for them like what should be done. Dont they know that i have put in 493859483958 effort too?

It annoys me more than people think.

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I guess everyone have their own worries and insecurities . But why does mine seems exceptionally bad?
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Why do i feel that i am not good at anything sometimes?



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